Wednesday, September 29, 2010

Howdy, sorry I've been away from my site for several months, but I have been dealing with something personal I have been suffering from all my life.  I've spent my whole life secretly riding a mentally and emotionally draining mood rollercoaster. I can go for weeks or month feeling wonderful, joyful, funny, social, talkative and on top of the world.

Then some small thing can occur and all of a sudden, for the next few weeks or months,(while still able to go to work and take care of my child) I am now depressed, sad, hopeless and unable to engage in or maintain close personal and social contact with friends and family.

During this period, I feel alone and isolated and become anxious at the thought of talking to anyone or spending time with anyone outside of people in my work environment and or my daughter at home. I am a good actress, but it is extremely draining when you are in a major depressive phase to find the energy to drag yourself out of bed in the morning, when all your depressed self wants to do is remain in the bed, under the covers and sleep for as long as it takes until depression runs it's course and you're back out of the tunnel and into the sun again. But if you're like me and absolutely refuse to give up your life, career and child to your depression, so you haul ass every morning and pretend to the world and to everyone you come in contact with that you are just like everyone else, but inside you know you're not. I have spent all my life creating and perfecting the normal,self-confident, funny, bright, calm girl facade I wear out in public every day to hide the real me ( or at least the real me my depressed mind convinces me I am) Behind my facade hides an insecure, anxious, nervous, sad, imperfect person who struggles everyday with pretending to be someone I'm not.

CHRIST COMPLEX coming soon.....

My friends,filmmakers, Jeff Richards & Travis Stephens are working on bring their vision, CHRIST COMPLEX to fruition.  I love to help so make sure you keep you eyes peeled in the future for CHRIST COMPLEX.

Independent Filmmaker Uses Web to Produce Movie
Huntington, WV - September 27, 2010  
West Virginia filmmakers are utilizing new online tools to make their projects a reality.

Jeff Richards is one of these filmmakers using Indiegogo, a website launched in 2008, to help individuals fund their creative and entrepreneurial projects.

“Christ Complex is your typical romantic comedy. Girl meets boy. Boy believes he is the world's savior. Boy fights (his) best friend to the death in order to stop the Apocalypse. It's kind of like Ryuhei Kitamura's Versus meets When Harry Met Sally.” Jeff explains.

“Websites like Indiegogo help the independent artist achieve their dreams through means of crowdsurfing.” says Richards. Crowdsurfing is the basis of the DIWO (Do It With Others) concept taken on by Indiegogo, which provides the ability to push the Indiegogo webpage over social networking platforms, such as Facebook and Twitter, to gain exposure.

Richards notes “Each campaign on the site can choose what perks to make available for each level donated. For instance, those donating ten dollars to Christ Complex will receive a producer credit, one hundred dollars and the donator will receive co-producer credit, a signed copy of the DVD, a signed movie poster and the option of have a character in the movie named after themselves or a friend.”

If you are interested in learning more about Christ Complex, or would be interested in contributing a tax-deductible donation, please visit

Writer/ Director Jeff Richards
Executive Producer Wm Stephens

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